One of THOSE dayz

Yep... one of those days for sure... but don't give up reading just yet, it gets better.

So I didn't wake up on the wrong side of the bed, but sometime between waking up and getting to work, my mood drastically changed for no good reason. As I started work at noon, I was straight up mad at the world. Nothing could get me out of this mood, and I was convinced of this. I wasn't too friendly to anyone and avoided talking to anyone if possible, which is quite possible being a processor.... So the afternoon drags on and nothing changes...

All of a sudden I get a bloody nose. I know this is a completely disgusting thing to mention in a blog, but I'm over it people! It happened and now you read about it:) So, this situation of mine... turns out I find myself hiding out in the bathroom with toilet paper up my nose cracking up at myself. Nothing could have been funnier. In fact I was so entertained that on the "worst day ever" this of all things would happen, that I decided I should probably send a picture to my boyfriend to document this moment.

So, a bad day turned into a worse day which turned into a "laugh at myself" day which then turned into a "normal Emily" day. I didn't tell anyone in the office about my catastrophe, but I put a smile on my face when I walked out of the bathroom (which I had been in for quite some time). That smile stayed on my face until I left work at 7. Moral of the story, sometimes it takes something so "bad" to turn your terrible, awful, no good, very bad day into a much better day. Laughing at yourself is healthy, and I try to make it a part of every "normal Emily" day I am blessed to have on this earth:)

Heart shaped pizza

This is part of a journal assignment I was assigned to do in my COR 300 class at SAU, and I thought I'd share it with you all. What beliefs do you hold most dearly, and of these, which are you willing to die for? Maybe take time to make your own list and think about what really matters in your life or what should really matter.

Top 10 beliefs I hold most dearly:

1. My belief in God. That he sent his son to this earth to die for every person’s sins, including my own. 

2. My belief in love. God loves me and I love Him, more than anyone else in this world. I also love others. I am commanded to do so. And on top of that, I know others who love me. 

3. My belief in relationships. God gave me people in my life to intermingle with and develop relationships with. More than anything, my relationship with God is the most important. 

4. My belief in family. More than just an average human relationship is the blood bond of another. My parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents… These people that God has blessed me with, who I believe I will be blessed enough to always keep strong relationships with. 

5. My belief in marriage. I have yet to marry, but I know marriage can and does last. I have many awesome examples of such relationships in my life. God has someone out there for me, whether I have found him yet or not. 

6. My belief in forgiveness. Christ has forgiven me, therefore I should forgive others, no matter what it is they may have done to “wrong” me.

7. My belief in heaven. Jesus has joined his father in heaven to prepare a place for me… a place for anyone who has accepted Jesus as their personal savior. This is where I will spend eternity with God and with those I love and that love God.

8. My belief in creation. God created all there ever has been on this earth. Whether He created the human being who then went on to create Microsoft, or whether He directly placed trees on this earth, all was created by God. Nothing is here by chance or even CLOSE to chance! No explosion or bang created who I am and what this beautiful world around me looks like.

9. My belief in myself. I think can, I thank I can… No, I know I can! I believe in myself. God is in me, and through him I can do all things through His strength in me. If it is God’s will for me, I believe and know I will be able to accomplish the tasks He puts before me. 

10. My belief in sustenance. What I am mainly referring to through this belief, is that I believe I am alive today one, because it is God’s will that I am, but two, that I have been provided with enough food and water to live off of. This “sustenance” has kept me alive this long, and will continue to do just that as long as I am provided for. 

Well there's my list of ten beliefs that I hold most dearly. Seen above, the bestest sustenance around, Marios Pizza in Greenville, IL. I am now craving it times a million and three. If anyone would like to ship me some, I wouldn't complain... I don't think, that is. Although here I am thinking about number 10 on my list. Maybe I need to get my priorities straight here:)

Also, seen even abover, is my grandparents, Art and Judy Osborne's hands with their wedding rings on them, placed upon the Bible. They have been married for over 50 years as have my dad's parents, Ish and Joanna Smith. SO blessed for examples such as these! Speaking of heart shaped pizzas, I hope everyone had a great Valentines Day! Whether your day was spent thinking more specifically about a significant other or maybe even thinking about how much God loves you and therefore we should love Him and others. I was blessed to be able to celebrate the day thinking of both God and others, and even more specially a certain other. Evan showed up on Monday and surprised me after class with roses and dinner! What a guy:) Anyways, hope this list could maybe get you all thinking. <3

oh life.

What can I blog about tonight because I'm tired of seeing my sad, Malibu crash face...

hmm...

How about I blog about what should I blog about... that should be fun.

Ok, 1) I'm home alone on a Friday night. 2) I did this to myself. 3) Why?

Sometimes I wish I had all the answers. Actually lots of the times. For instance, should I really keep majoring in social work? Should I actually live on campus next year? Should I even finish college at all? ... Serious questions here people. One of my favorite verses in the Bible is Matthew 6:34: "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Great stuff right there, but so super dooper hard to actually do. Worry, worry, worry. Welcome to my lyfe. I just want to know now what God has planned for me and my future... the who, what, when, where, and why... but patience is a virtue. By the way, is patience the only virtue, because that's the only virtue that gets a cool quote. Anyways, patience is yet another one of those things I super dooper struggle with. This is my blog of struggles. Yep.

So I'm about to turn 21 in a month... cool. Know what's crazy... I won't be graduating from college until I'm 23... (if I graduate at all) Now some of you may be thinking to yourself, "if?"... Yes, if. Did you know that college is actually not the answer to all your life problems? Did you know college may not truly be the answer for everyone? Amazing huh. I would say our society is pushing college more than ever these days... and no I don't think this is entirely a bad thing at all. Graduating from college gets you that big DEGREE word... the GOLDEN TICKET to a better life. Well hey... lets say you graduate with a degree and then decide, hmm, I really don't want to be a (insert job position title here) ... I don't want to be a social worker anymore.... so you start applying to different businesses because maybe you want to be a business woman now. Do you think those companies you are applying to are going to say, "Oh and we see you have graduated with a social work degree. That will be super helpful to you in this career choice." I honestly think they are more apt to ask you, "We see you graduated with a degree in social work... Why are you not out applying to jobs within this field?" And you reply, "Well I just really wanted to graduate with some degree... any degree really..." I don't think a degree is the golden ticket that it's assumed to be.

At age 20 I wish I knew what I wanted to be when when I "grew up"... I wish that probably a little too much. So until then, what am I supposed to do? THAT IS THE QUESTION OF MY LYFE RIGHT NOW! 

oh life.